For the first time in my life I would like to meet somebody truly real about who they are. People start thousands of small white lies everyday to make themselves seem more interesting then they actually are. There is nothing about keeping a secret, or not telling the whole truth in order to make yourself seem mysterious, that is one small bit cool. I mean there is nothing cool about even thinking about how to make yourself seem cooler than you really are.I once had a friend that was supposed to move in with me in college. He ended up not moving in with me
though because a major event occured in his life. I was so amazed by the fact that something had happened to him that I didn't even really care that he wasn't moving in...I just wanted to know what it was. You see we all went to a small private Christian college and we were all majoring in Theology. So having something big and great happen to you was a truly big thing. So I thought he had gotten a job or something noble like that.

Everytime I asked somebody why he wasn't moving in I was told 'yea man you might just talk to him about it...it's a pretty big deal though. I am really proud of him.' I was almost starting to get pretty angry because I could clearly see that he had asked people not to tell other people what was going on in his life.Well it turned out that he had gotten his girlfriend pregnant and was pretty ashamed about it. But he was making the decision to stop school and move back to her families house in another state to help her with the child. Everybody was so proud of him for making that decision that they didn't even care that he was dropping everything he had committed to in order to follow through with this mistake that he had made. If this had been a random guy on the street not in college everybody would have scolded him for...you know everything. But they wanted to be gentle and loving and caring that they thought not mentioning anything about the sin and immediatley caring for the sinner was the appropriate thing to do. He acted like he was the king of the world, and they both got tons of gifts and everything even know they hadn't done one noble thing since she got pregnant. I hated him forever because of that.

Now if he would have just come straight out and told me and apologized for not being able to follow through with his previous agreement I wouldn't have cared one small bit about it...but he had to try to work the system to see if he could use religion to come out on top. I was and in a small way am still very ashamed to call him my friend.There is another thing that really bugs the shisnit out of me. When I meet somebody that tries to be that person who knows everything about everybody and tells everything in a blink of an eye. I mean I know this guy that always tries to be one step ahead of everybody on what is going on with all of his and your friends. I think that it is a really cool desire to want to know what is going on incase you want to meet up with people. But when a freakin guy just goes around giving off information just because he was to sound smarter and more informed than you because it makes it seem like people like him more than you is a very agrivating thing. Sometimes I just want to run him through.

I can't wait to meet somebody who is not afraid to be exactly who they are and don't care about what anybody else thinks about them. I would befriend...and if it was a woman...marry them immediately.

I read once in Dietrich Bonhoeffer's book "The Cost of Discipleship" that 'The only way to follow Jesus was to live in the word.'

It is said like this is not a truth anymore. Bonhoeffer was talking about how this is still an important trait but it takes much more. Therefore he was not discrediting it at all. And therefore neither am I. However...so many people teach that you don't have to do everything by the way of the Lord to call yourself one of His own. But my question is...'if you don't then what in the heck does one of His own look like?' Because I have always thought that a follower of Christ...in its true form was a person that walked as closely to the side of the mountain hugging it rather than seeing how far out on the edge they are capable of going before they fall off.

I am actually sure that this is what the message is, however because so many people warp the message of Grace that it now sounds like a free for all fraternity that allows anybody in regardless of their heart or faith. (And someone attending Church is much different from someone who very activily participates in the church congregation without a preceding declaration of faith. If a person doesn't delcare it how will we ever know if somebody is preaching the wrong message when we aren't looking, and playing it off like that is what we believe also.)

I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

Galatians 2:20

Travel

I have been traveling for longer than I can remember. Ever since I was a little boy I can remember going to different countries...learning different weird languages...and I am slowly learnig that I love it more than anything else I can remember as much. There is nothing more exhilitrating as traveling to a place you don't know and meeting people that that have no idea who I am.


you should try it one day. Just take a trip to somewhere you have never been and experience life in a whole new way.